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April 23, 2002 ( Tuesday, April 23, 2002 ) Well, what to say about the last three days? Almost the same things could be said to wrap up the last four weeks. Some people grow up and some people don't. It almost seems that if things don't look like they're going up anytime soon, then it's just easier to go the opposite direction. I'm finally getting to the point where I'm getting fed up with all the backstabbing that goes on in life. It's not only friends. It's work, family, it seems even strangers. I can't say that I don't get involved with gossiping, I don't think that anybody is immune, I just think that some friends, whether they're talking to each other or not, would just admit they're faults and move on. Come on people, we have two months left of school. After two months who knows if you'll ever see these people again. Things just seem to get worse. Not for me personally but I just feel that pretty soon the proverbial shelf that everyone seems to hide they're shit stories on, will crack and everything will just spill out at once. And believe me, there are people (most likely myself included) that would rather it be told in a calm fashion than in a match to see who hates who the most. I've been waiting most of my teenage life for the moment that I would be able to say that I finished school ,and I always envisioned my friends being happy, not stabbing each other in the back. Again, I would be lying if I said that I've never done it, or that I don't stop it when it does happen, it's just that I wish other people would see the same thing and gain the incentive to help stop it. In a sense I've been trying to change things that just won't change. Whether it's me trying to change myself (physically,mentally,or emotionally) or me trying to change you people, i just can't get to it with the right approach. I've been trying to get into shape. Not that I'm a fat-ass or anything, I just think....I just know that I feel better after I've actually gone outside and done something. I've been trying to change my friends into things they're not. Not that there is anything wrong with the way you all are. I love my friends more than anything right now and I'd be so lost without a single one of them, it's just that I've been raised in a family where if you don't like something, try and change it. So that's how I've been looking at some of my friends. I know that it's not my place to change anything, it's just something that seems to emerge from my mind and won't go away. I think I've said all that I needed to say. www.geocities.com/joelr12/fp.html ^ give it a few hours before it actually has what i want to have |
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